Now Little Ladybug is 3 years old. She has learned that she is allowed to say "no", she can choose to not do something and to fake cry. She is still my sweet little girl but also can be very challenging.
This week, LL was "poorly". She had a running nose but mostly just really tired and wanting to extra cuddles. She was not happy that her brother also needed to sit in mommy's lap for milk and cuddles. We had quite few moments of crying and being extremely upset. She would often start crying before she even told me what she wanted. My ability be understanding and patient was challenged at moments. Being extremely tired and overwhelmed with motherhood and blogging, it was hard to find moments of joy this week.
The ordinary moments of motherhood sometimes happen when we least expect it. The other night, I wanted to walk to the grocery store after my husband came home. I had spent a "long" day trying to keep my daughter from bursting into tears. I wanted a couple minutes to be able to just smell the fresh air and to be alone. LL really wanted to come to the store also and I really wanted to say "no" but she asked me sweetly. With the promise to be a "good girl" and to hold my hand the whole time, I said she could come with me. As we started walk, she suddenly wanted to skip. I have not skipped for years and barely remember how to do it but I suddenly I found the urge to skip. She made me smile and realised that these are moments that I hope that she will remember not the tears earlier in the day. I am sure the passing cars thought I was a little crazy but I did not care. My daughter had the biggest smile and I think was a little surprised that her mother knew had to skip. I need to remember to skip and be silly with her more often.